Sunday, July 25, 2010

What's Going On?

There is a lot going on in my mind and my heart right now. No. Nothing to announce. In fact, I wonder what it is that my family, and me in particular, are supposed to be learning during this horrendous wait. I know of many women, who, over the past 4 years since we have begun waiting for our next child, have had 2 or even 3 babies. Oh my heart.

I have been asked by several women over the past few weeks if I'm okay. I say I am. With that slight smile that could tell anyone asking that I'm not. But I can't really share the things going on in my heart and mind right now. How do you tell someone who hasn't been waiting for over 4 years for a child how you feel? Honestly, I don't know.

I should put in here that we have had a busy summer. Cruise. Water. Movies. Camping. BBQs. Cousins. Lagoon. Bikes. Frosty Freezy Freeze treats. Friends. Crafts. We are never bored. So I have had a lot to keep me busy. And my kids are terrific entertainers. Today they single handedly put together a show to film and then send in to America's Funniest Home Videos. It's very clever. You'd never know it was staged. They make me laugh!! And when we rode rides at Lagoon, Sam would yell out, "I'm too young to die!" and "Whoever made this is crazy!" Do you know how hard it is to laugh when screaming on a roller coaster?!

So what is it I'm trying to say? Heck! I don't know. I really need to put more energy into sharing our fun with you, though! I need to take my camera with me more often. We are more than halfway through our summer! Yikes. And then my babies will be gone ALL DAY! ALL 3 OF THEM! What will I do with myself? I am working on that. Something will come to me. Daniel asked if I would get a job. HA!! I don't know that many of you knew me when I worked. It's not a good thing! The workforce is better off without the likes of me! But I will figure something out. And maybe I'll let you know. So for this Sunday evening, goodnight.

Oh. And never believe a lady who has been waiting for an elusive adoption and says she is okay. She's not. She might just need a hug. Or something.


Crissy said...

I'll send some cyber hugs! I hope this long wait ends VERY soon! We should go get a big bowl of chocolate ice cream one of these days. I know it doesn't help, but maybe just a tiny bit. I know I could use some too :)

Jen said...

Jennie! With all of my heart, I wish I could help you! But just to let you know, I am here for you. No matter what!

Kim said...

Amen to this! Along with the adoption acceptance letter, mothers should be provided with a t-shirt that says, "Don't ask. Just hug." And it should come with a huge supply of Kleenex - the lotion kind. Good job staying busy!!

Kristi said...

I don't know what to say, waiting is so hard, just remembering waiting makes me tear up, be of good cheer, eat chocolate and know your friends are rooting for you.