Dear Birth Mom,
I know that sounds impersonal...birth mom. But it is a title you should wear proudly. You are already held in high esteem at our house. We can't wait to know your name. Then our letter will be complete.
We can't even begin to imagine what you have been experiencing and feeling in the past months. But we can probably describe what we have felt, in just a few words, and find that you have felt these same things in your own way. Grief, loss, sadness, heartache, loneliness, anger, resentment, uncontrollable tears, confusion, peace, comfort, lifted, and in a way, beginning to heal. Your choice doesn't come because of the grief and anger and confusion. It comes from the peace and comfort you have received. Peace and comfort that we have prayed you would have.
Through these extremes in feelings and emotions, we have both come to the same conclusion. Adoption. The word alone can conjure up feelings of fear, sadness, loneliness, heartache and loss. But when done in the right spirit, it can bring feelings of hope, peace, comfort and joy. I hope that prayer and counsel from those who love you have led you to this selfless and valiant choice.
As a family, we have felt a void where another little body should be. But we have to depend on someone else, you, to provide that body. The Spirit that will fill that body will be a valiant one and one who will be coming to this life with a special purpose. The first purpose is to bring us together. I can't tell you how much we are looking forward to meeting you. To having you in our lives and to provide a home and mommy and daddy for your baby. We look forward to knowing you. The birth mother to our little one.
In January, 2009, Daniel and I felt very strongly that someone would be born and we needed to be ready. That led us to action. We got all our paperwork done and turned in. Then we had our classes required by LDSFS. When we had the birth parent panel, I felt so many emotions. How could we not love someone, you, who will give life to such a precious baby? We began to love you, to pray for you that day. Our prayer for you has evolved. We hope you have felt the power behind our prayers, our family's prayers and the prayers of so many others in your behalf. Peace, love, hope. Even though this is a scary time, we hope you have felt those feelings of comfort.
So now that we are at this point, we need to look to the future. What will happen once this precious baby is placed? Considering how much we already love you, the huge section of our hearts that you hold, We can't imagine our lives without you in it. We hope we can work to build a relationship based on love, trust and friendship. And of course, having a beautiful baby in common is a wonderful blessing.
You continue to be in our hearts, in our prayers and on our minds every day. We love you. We hope you will grow to love us. We pray that Heavenly Father will continue to bless you and that you will feel an extra portion of the Spirit in your life each day.
With much love,
Jennie and Daniel
