The Sarajune Chronicles

Well. Here we are. The eve of the Beijing Olympics. I am SOOOOO excited. I am looking forward to seeing Beijing, and China in general, over the next few weeks. I want to be there now. Right now. Not competing! I want to be there to pick up my baby. But I'm not, so I'll write a new Chronicles post.

This week our agency recieved a blow that didn't surprise me at all. Should I be worried that it didn't surprise me? Hmmm. Perhaps. Our agency was denied Hague Accreditation. What does this mean? Well, it shouldn't mean much to us because of our Log In Date (9-13-06). But it will affect us because we will need to renew paperwork again. And again. And when you renew paperwork with the USCIS (INS), you have to fill out Hague paperwork. You have to have a Hague Accredited agency to do the paperwork. It does affect us. So it does come as a blow.

I'm not emotional about it. It's another glitch in a long line of glitches in this process. We will wait for our agency to refer us to an agency that can get the paperwork through for us. Hmmm. Should I be worried? Perhaps.

A year ago I started looking into India. This time I started looking at Ethiopia. Could I send my heart to another country? I have given it some thought and realize, once again, that my heart is in China. I know that with the level of hot and bothered I get with the Olympics being in Beijing and all the press, much of it negative, and how it just breaks my heart, that China is still my only choice.

Hollywood is the worst. Other people are pretty bad. I understand the human rights issues. Believe me! I understand them. While we were preparing to go to China, we were told not to ask or talk about Tibet or Tiananmen Square and other things regarding human rights. Why? Because they most likely wouldn't know what we were talking about. And if they did, they would deny it happened. They would say their government would never allow such a thing to happen. I saw what happened on Tiananmen Square. I remember a tank going through the square amidst all the Chinese students. As I walked through Tiananmen Square, I could feel the history of a very oppressed people. But for the people, it never happened. So we didn't say a word.

As the bashing goes on, I think about the people. They are kept in the dark on so many levels. They don't have a free press. Everything is controlled. That's Communism for you. The people have nothing to do with it. The babies have no control over their own destiny. And that breaks my heart. As I can't stop the tears from coming when I think of countless children who haven't gotten a hug or kiss or a complete meal, I wish that the world would give them a chance. I wish their government would give them a chance.

I hope that China walks away from this Olympics as champions. I hope that people here can see what a strong, valiant, worthy people the Chinese are. I pray for a governmental change that will bring light to the people. The light of peace. The light of truth. The light of liberty. The light of the gospel.

My heart aches for my baby. I have empty arms. I want my family to be complete now. I know I'm not in charge of it all, though. If I were, I wouldn't be learning as much as I am. China is in our blood, in every beat of our hearts, in every glance at my children. Enjoy the Olympics! Enjoy all that you have, and even take for granted, here in America. Enjoy the peace that you feel when you are on the right path. I will. I am. Thanks for reading.